result of last friday night

all in all, I could come back here safely.
actually, he didn't come up to the bar at the night.

when I arrived there, it was 9pm.
I got a short call from him last night so I suspected he might not come,
but I would love to see him and I went there.

maybe it was too late time for him
or he didn't come because our meeting was uncovered again by somebody behind him,
and he left there quickly to protect me from black men - the guys in his wife's side.

I really don't know what was happening,
and I guess we shouldn't meet up at the moment maybe.

but my feeling, you know, it was smashed apart,

I've already known that I should not do that because of the danger.
that is not a joke, and real danger, I know the fact.
and I also know that he's also the man who's belong to that dirty society.

I wish I could forget everything that I had experiences with him before.
I might be able to give up about everything if I didn't have any sweet memories with him.
but, in fact I have, not only one but also many things, includes some emails.

what I should do, is not to see him any more.
but
what I wanna do, is to see him again as soon as possible...

anyways,
I could enjoy the night very much because I could see Syl & her friends
then I could spent a great time together.

Syl tried to cheer me up and I was impressed by her behavior all the time.
she is my real friend.
I spent all over the night together with her and I slept over that night in her room.

well..
it was great but sad night,
and I miss him...