happenings in October (1/2)

it's been a long time to write here.
I have to write so many thing, but I intend to write down only the latest things.

at first, I've not heard from Micheal since 2 things happened.
I guess maybe he heard something about them from the guy who's always staring at me in the bar,
and he got mad about my behavior.

happening#1
I surpose it was 15th sep, when I went to the bar I happened to meet Steve there.
it was second time for us to see, so we pleased that lucky happening and gave a hug to each other.
he wanted to buy a drink for me but I refused 'cause Michael told me not to let another guy to buy a drink for me.
I was so happy to meet him again because we surely attracted by each other and we both know it,
but somehow I couldn't stop thinking about Michael I really don't know why,
then I left there quickly after we exchanged the numbers.
the guy I guess he's a friend of Michael I'm not sure watched us talking so I cared about it,
but now I think I should be more carefuly than I did if he really told on us to Michael and he got mad about that.

happening#2
It was about Az I mean about the show that we intended to go together.
actually I've not been hearing from him for a long time and I suspected he did intentionally,
so I was close to give up everything about him,
but I was really looking forward to going to the show wit him and I intended to make it last to see him.
I was waiting for his reply but he didn't give me any responses, so I asked Yonji and also Mike (Syl side) to help me
but in fact they couldn't help.
I don't know whether Jayce knew it and told on Michael or not but there's some possibilities that he did.
but at that night he did reply to me at last and I understood the reasons why.

anyhow because these kinds of reasons, he's not been calling me at all for about 2 or 3 weeks.
I was so sad in fact but I've been standing this situation.

then,yesterday

Az wanted me to see me end of this week to refund my money and to give it back to me,
but as usual, he didn't answer.
so after the appointment of my hair-modeling job I went to crow with Kiwa, one of my precious friends.
I didn't have any hopes that I could happen to meet him,
but I actually did!!!!! so weird!!!!!
when I passed through in front of the bar, I could find Mike but I couldn't find him.
then I said hello to the guys by smiling to them and went away, then someone run to me and caught my sholder,
"hey, how r u doin?! why you passed away?"
it was undoubtedly a big big surprise.
"are you there? ...well I couldn't find you then, and, did you see my mail?"
"well um, no. sorry I've not checked my mails."
"oh, you should do that! ...well I'll be back soon, so see you later."
while even we're having dinner together I couldn't stop thinking about Az so I force Kiwa to hurry to eat up them.
I'm so sorry....
in addition, I happened to see Miles at the restaurant? he was together wit a girl (she might his new girlfriend...?)
Miles said "oooh! what a surprise! well are you gonna go to crow? see you there again!"
but actually I couldn't because I....****ed

-------------------------------------------

written on 7th Oct,


To be continued to the next...